sober

i'm at gillette clinic for my appointment to have the seating in my wheelchair fixed as soon as i put my earbuds in my ear, i turned the radio station that i always listen to on and the song which tells the story of my life is about to play, "sober" by tool. i don't even drink, that's why it's sad to me, i can't remember the last time that i drank. There's a shadow just behind me, shrouding every step I take, making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me. Waiting like a stalking viper who upon the finger rests. Murder now the path is must we just because the son has come. Jesus, won't you fucking whistle something but the past and done? (x2) Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over. Why can't we dream forever? I just want to start things over. I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave, I will work to elevate you just enough to bring you down. Mother Mary won't you whisper something but the past and done. (x2) Why can't we not be sober? I Just want to start this over. Why can't we sleep forever? I Just want to start things over. I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust Me. Why can't we not be sober? I Just want to start things over. Why can't we sleep forever? I Just want to start this over. I want what I want. I want what I want. I want what I want. I want what I want. i know that i should put all of this behind me, so i will try to do that but it's hard when you're reminded every fucking day when your ass hurts from sitting in a damn wheelchair. the douohe bag at seating said to me today (after i told him that i cross my legs when my hamstrings get sore, so that only one is sore and not both are sore), "well, *scratches head* everyone's gonna do SOMETHING to adjust theirselves when their bottoms hurt." well, YES, dumbass, but that's why i was here to see you for ideas to reduce the pain. he ended up telling me that he couldn't do anything to help me. i had actually considered getting out of my wheelchair while waiting for the dumbass to come back but i figured that i'd probably hurt myself badly (knowing my luck), so i put my seatbelt back on and continued waiting.